i washed a contact down the sink this morning. i was tired and not thinking straight, so i stared like a deer in headlights while the water rushed it through the pipes before my mind clicked into gear and i shut it off. too late. gone. this is a trouble because i wear gas permeable contacts, so it'll take a few weeks at least to get a new pair. that wouldn't be so bad except that i'm so nearsighted that i'm legally blind. i can't safely drive to work. i can barely even see the ground when i'm walking. that wouldn't be much of an issue either except that i've lost my glasses. i wear them now and then 'cause i like glasses, but they disappeared sometime this month or last. i spent a few hours this morning with stereo99 and ripped my room apart trying to find them. i'm a total slob, so it's often difficult to even find the floor in my room let alone a small object. i'm normally pretty good about putting valuable things which might get broken on high shelves or safe places, but none of the normal glasses locales produced glasses.

i get terrible headaches without contacts/glasses 'cause my vision is so bad. today i'm wearing platform sandals, and i almost fell as i was leaving the house because i can't see the ground well enough to avoid obstacles. (don't ask me why i thought it was a good idea to wear them in the first place.) i had to call my mom and beg her to drive me to work. as i write this i'm sitting a few inches from the monitor squinting and my eyes are all sandpapery and hot and my forehead aching.

it's interesting, i rarely think about how nonfunctional i am without technology. if i lived many years ago i probably would've been eaten by a boar or otherwise killed in the wilderness. i don't have a spare pair of contacts because my insurance only allows you to get either glasses or contacts once every other year, and 4 years back i chose to get glasses instead. my glasses/contacts are very expensive because my vision's so bad that they have to use some kind of crazymagic to get the glasses to be thin enough to not look like coke bottle lenses, and my eyes are two different prescriptions. i never learned how to put in soft contacts and got kicked out of the eye doctor when i was a kid because they tried to teach me so many times and i failed so many times that they told me i couldn't have them. i guess i should probably try again. it would be awfully nice to be able to easily replace a lost contact, or to have cool fake colored eyes with little designs, etc. although i like to avoid disposable products in general in favor of ones that last if possible.